In our recent move to the Hawaiian island of Maui, I’ve had some interesting things about myself come to light. Like, I hadn’t realized how much familiar surroundings and routine meant to me. Not that I had a super specific routine in my life before, but what surrounded me was familiar. Things around me had their place and I knew where to find them. My “stuff” was all around me. There was a comfort in just feeling the energy of my home, my neighborhood, my town. All of that has changed.
Moving 4500 miles away from where I lived for 22 years was more of a challenge than I anticipated. Although I’d chosen it, I’d planned it, I’d hyped it up to my husband, I found myself in moments of fear. I wasn’t completely sure if picking up my life and moving to the middle of the Pacific Ocean was such a great idea. I longed for home and the comforts of it. I wanted to see the same landscape out my window I’d seen every day for so long. I wanted to go to the grocery store and have the people working there nod hello because they knew my face.
Then, I watched the sunset on our wedding anniversary and a sea turtle swam by. Not only did it swim by, but it lifted its head out of the water and looked straight at us! Another swam directly underneath me two days later. We watched giant waves crash on ancient lava rocks and felt the energy of nature. We stood on a forest path amongst trees that had been there since indigenous Hawaiians lived on the land and it was still theirs.
I’ve been here 13 days and I’m already transforming. I’m moving toward who I came here to be. I’m becoming more, and I couldn’t be more grateful or more sure that yes, this was the right decision.
Much Aloha! xox
Krista Gorman, PA-C
Matters Of Life And Death 