We’ve all heard the saying “There are no guarantees in life.” Dying while in labor with my daughter was the last thing I expected to happen that morning. I had the expectation of a safe delivery, but that expectation was not met. I had all these plans for my life afterward, but those plans changed, and in a big way.
This virus has no consideration for the outline you have of your life. It is here, and may not be going anywhere. Consider that for a moment. A virus that we know little about, one there is no vaccine or at this point, no medications to treat, may be a continuous threat for the foreseeable future. Our lives have been fundamentally altered in one foul swoop, leaving many reeling, wondering how they are going to manage themselves now.
Our personal and professional lives, in some cases, have been turned upside down. From the cashier at any store in America to the physician (or physician assistant in my case ;), the financial impact of this pandemic is significant, for some irreversibly damaging to their lively hood.
But, I ask you, is this a “bad” thing?
We are here to expand in awareness of who we are. We are here to connect with ourselves in a fundamental way so we may then better connect with one another. It is through our connections that we grow and become Who We Are. Sometimes things need to be shaken up in a big way for this to happen. No matter the source of this virus, whether you believe the scientists or the conspiracy theorists, its here. My question is, what are you going to do with the time you have on this earth, right now? Are you going to continue on in the same way as before? My guess is the world won’t let you. None of us are going to be able to, and that’s a good thing.
Focusing on what we have gained from this virus being present at this time in our lives, rather than what it has taken, completely turns our experience around. We go from the perception of loss to one of gain. We have gained time either alone, or with family. We have gained time to consider where we are in our lives and where we’ve always wanted to be. What is your hearts desire? What do you want to do that you haven’t done yet because fear has kept you from it?
Now. Now is the time to make the changes that will allow for greater growth and spiritual expansion. Fighting the changes, lamenting about how life will never be the same, keeps you stuck in the old when all your soul wants is to let the new rush in.
Say “YES” to your life and your life will step up to meet you. Every. Single. Time.
Much Love to you !! xox
“As I began to love myself I found that anguish and emotional suffering are only warning signs that I was living against my own truth. Today, I know, this is “AUTHENTICITY”.
As I began to love myself I understood how much it can offend somebody if I try to force my desires on this person, even though I knew the time was not right and the person was not ready for it, and even though this person was me. Today I call it “RESPECT”.
As I began to love myself I stopped craving for a different life, and I could see that everything that surrounded me was inviting me to grow. Today I call it “MATURITY”.
As I began to love myself I understood that at any circumstance, I am in the right place at the right time, and everything happens at the exactly right moment. So I could be calm. Today I call it “SELF-CONFIDENCE”.
As I began to love myself I quit stealing my own time, and I stopped designing huge projects for the future. Today, I only do what brings me joy and happiness, things I love to do and that make my heart cheer, and I do them in my own way and in my own rhythm. Today I call it “SIMPLICITY”.
As I began to love myself I freed myself of anything that is no good for my health – food, people, things, situations, and everything that drew me down and away from myself. At first I called this attitude a healthy egoism. Today I know it is “LOVE OF ONESELF”.
As I began to love myself I quit trying to always be right, and ever since I was wrong less of the time. Today I discovered that is “MODESTY”.
As I began to love myself I refused to go on living in the past and worrying about the future. Now, I only live for the moment, where everything is happening. Today I live each day, day by day, and I call it “FULFILLMENT”.
As I began to love myself I recognized that my mind can disturb me and it can make me sick. But as I connected it to my heart, my mind became a valuable ally. Today I call this connection “WISDOM OF THE HEART”.
We no longer need to fear arguments, confrontations or any kind of problems with ourselves or others. Even stars collide, and out of their crashing new worlds are born. Today I know “THAT IS LIFE”!”
― Charlie Chaplin
My husband, Ainsley, who still lives in the UK as we go through the process of his immigrating to the US, has been diagnosed with cancer. We still don’t know the type of cancer it is but we know what we’re doing about it.
This didn’t happen by accident. This didn’t happen by chance. It’s happening for many reasons and mostly to provide an opportunity to deeply grow into more expansive love in all respects. Love for self, others, circumstances, experiences, etc. It is an infinitely powerful force that informs our existence and provides the reference point from which everything else flows.
And Love heals.
Here’s Ainsley’s perspective on things…I wish to share it in the spirit of great Love for you all.
“For all those wonderful people out there who have sent me prayers and loving well wishes, I want to say that I love you all. I had my latest results today, relating to the Testicular Cancer . I was told that the tumour they found is more likely to be some sort of Lymphoma, this means that the tumour has to be tested more specifically to decipher what exactly is occurring. I will have to wait for around 2 weeks before I know anything else. So this is what I have decided ( with my beautiful wife Krista ). I am not going to attach myself to any sort of prognosis because as yet there isn’t one. I’m healing very well from my Op and have continued to feel healthy and well within myself. I am on a journey with the deepest truest sense of love and it’s power. I am sharing this now because I want to be an example to others that, walking through our lives with love reveals the abundance of life. I am a powerful force in my own life and when I want something I always get it. My ultimate desire is to live and serve with Krista, this I will achieve. I made a statement a long while ago that stands more true today than ever. I told Krista that to be with her I would move mountains and that there is nothing that can stop me. I revised that today by adding that if I needed to I would take the mountain apart block by block. For my dear friends who read this, hold only joy for me because I remain joyful. Feel happiness with me because I am happy. I knew coming into this life ( and was reminded during my NDE ) that there would be certain experiences which would shape me, I feel deeply in my soul that they are on my path, not to test me, but to help me love more, inspire more, to share more and to continue serving those I am blessed to serve, just because I can
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Much Love to you xox
Krista
After watching two of Will Smith’s movies this week I feel like hugging him hugely. Actually, I feel like hugging the writers and directors of the movies too. In fact, everyone involved gets a huge hug. I am literally transformed.
The first film was Collateral Beauty. Gorgeous. Just gorgeous. I was brought to a place that I’ve never allowed myself to go before in the years following my death. Will’s depiction of the struggle between dealing with the death of a loved one and living life without them brought me to a new place in my understanding of my own death. Fear kept his character from reconciling the two entities and from reconciling himself in his new life without his daughter.
I spent years and years fearful of being me. I rejected my NDE and the profound entity it was and is and what it meant to me. I denied myself the love of it and in effect rejected me. I was slowly dying inside, until I reconciled the truth within myself, the truth being love is it. In order to do that I had to acknowledge my death. I died. It wasn’t someone else that died, it was me. I no longer separate myself from that truth. I am that truth, I am the experience. The experience is me, and I’m divine. WE are divine.
There is such incredible beauty in every thing associated with death and with life. All the swirling decisions and forgotten birthdays and lost loves and found treasures, all the divine light and eternal truths and undeniable connection with everyone and everything is just….magnificent. There are no words to describe just how magnificent it all is. Bringing that level of magnificence into this life is what creates a beautiful life with a lot of collateral beauty!
The second film was 7 pounds. The complete self-sacrifice of a man who’s “done wrong” is beyond comprehension. That is the ultimate act of love and compassion and heroism. That movie humbled me to the point of awe. My reason for being here has taken on a new energy. I have rededicated myself to sharing love and helping those who need help find ways to be that love. Everything I do is toward that end. There are no boundaries and no distractions. So, thank you Will Smith for giving me, little old me, the gift of insight and new beginnings.
Krista Gorman, PA-C
