Matters Of Life And Death

After watching two of Will Smith’s movies this week I feel like hugging him hugely.  Actually, I feel like hugging the writers and directors of the movies too.  In fact, everyone involved gets a huge hug.  I am literally transformed.

The first film was Collateral Beauty.  Gorgeous.  Just gorgeous.  I was brought to a place that I’ve never allowed myself to go before in the years following my death.  Will’s depiction of the struggle between dealing with the death of a loved one and living life without them brought me to a new place in my understanding of my own death.  Fear kept his character from reconciling the two entities and from reconciling himself in his new life without his daughter.

I spent years and years fearful of being me.  I rejected my NDE and the profound entity it was and is and what it meant to me.  I denied myself the love of it and in effect rejected me.  I was slowly dying inside, until I reconciled the truth within myself, the truth being love is it.  In order to do that I had to acknowledge my death.  I died.  It wasn’t someone else that died, it was me.  I no longer separate myself from that truth.  I am that truth, I am the experience.  The experience is me, and I’m divine.  WE are divine.

There is such incredible beauty in every thing associated with death and with life.  All the swirling decisions and forgotten birthdays and lost loves and found treasures, all the divine light and eternal truths and undeniable connection with everyone and everything is just….magnificent.  There are no words to describe just how magnificent it all is.  Bringing that level of magnificence into this life is what creates a beautiful life with a lot of collateral beauty!

The second film was 7 pounds.  The complete self-sacrifice of a man who’s “done wrong” is beyond comprehension.  That is the ultimate act of love and compassion and heroism.  That movie humbled me to the point of awe.  My reason for being here has taken on a new energy.  I have rededicated myself to sharing love and helping those who need help find ways to be that love.  Everything I do is toward that end.  There are no boundaries and no distractions.  So, thank you Will Smith for giving me, little old me, the gift of insight and new beginnings.