Matters Of Life And Death

After all the years of living for others, I’ve incorporated Me into the mix.

It wasn’t easy.

I struggled for a really long time trying to figure out why I was so unhappy, unfulfilled and, quite frankly, lost.  In fact, I was so preoccupied with figuring it out that I missed out on so much potential for joy in my life.

I want better things for you.  I want others to learn from Me.  We are all in this together.

Here’s a little bit of my story….teenage angst, partying, trying to “figure it all out”, then college, stopped partying and still trying to “figure it all out”.  Then college again, married and “PFOOMP”, everything in my life turned upside down.

I died and came back to life.

During labor with my daughter 14 years ago I suffered an Amniotic Fluid Embolism and was without a detectable heartbeat for 8 minutes.  I had a near death experience during those 8 minutes that completely changed Me.  But, my life before my NDE was still the same  (plus an amazing new baby girl).

I wasn’t the same.

I had come to understand who the real Me was, yet felt I couldn’t express her in the world.  I felt unsupported by my family who didn’t know how to deal with it when I told them I’d experienced the afterlife.  I felt incredibly alone, sans my daughter.  She was (and is) the absolute light of my life.

Fast forward, rather than living my truth to the fullest from the perspective of the Love I learned I was, for many years afterward I instead dimmed myself down and lived small.  I felt unable to focus on my need for personal growth in order to catch up with the loving being I knew I was at my core.  I didn’t have the mental capacity for it, and was completely overwhelmed with life.

Then, I got angry.

My breaking point was when my husband became very ill and I had to work alone to keep our family going.  I’d felt alone for years, but somehow the illness sparked something in me.  I wasn’t going to do it anymore.  I wasn’t going to put myself last.  I took care of my family, but started really taking care of myself.

I began doing the things we all intuitively know we need to do to be healthy, like eating right and exercising, but took it further than that.  I started mediating and being hyper-vigilant about monitoring my thoughts.  I’d read about many things during that period of time, from the classics of literature to Eckart Tolle and found myself in all of it!  There was so much more of Me to Me than what I was sharing with the world, and I wanted to share…I wanted to connect with others in the worst way!  Over the years I’d shut myself off and knew what I needed to do in order to truly be free from the self-imposed prison I’d placed myself in.  I needed to process and integrate my near death experience into my being, then reflect it outward to the world.

Three years later, I’m here writing this blog.  There has been so much growth not only in Me but in my family as well.  Miraculous growth!  For the first time ever we were functioning as a true family unit, not separate entities living under the same roof.  At the core of the many stages of growth along the way was Love for one another, and the practice of the Law of Attraction and the Twelve Principles I used to help heal me when I had nothing else.

I am in the process of starting a sister blog about the Twelve Principles and am so excited to share them with you.  Within the practicing of these Principles is the potential, the true potential for miraculous healing to take place in our lives.  I’m not kidding.  My family is a shining example, I am a shining example.

Our lives are so precious, our reason for being here is so simple but we make it incredibly complicated.

There is a way to simplify it, but we have to strip away the old beliefs and habits of the past in order to let new ones take root and practicing the Principles are what did it for Me.  They helped Me rediscover who and what I was, the Love I experienced in the afterlife is the same Love that is in me and the same Love that is in you.  It’s what binds us together, and is everlasting.

Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for being here and sharing in this journey with Me.

oxoxo