Happy Mother’s Day to all those who are mothers and who mother, whether here or in another realm. Happy Mother’s Day to the Sun, the Moon and our beautiful planet, Earth. Feeling Love for all, especially on this day. ΑΩ
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After all the years of living for others, I’ve incorporated Me into the mix.
It wasn’t easy.
I struggled for a really long time trying to figure out why I was so unhappy, unfulfilled and, quite frankly, lost. In fact, I was so preoccupied with figuring it out that I missed out on so much potential for joy in my life.
I want better things for you. I want others to learn from Me. We are all in this together.
Here’s a little bit of my story….teenage angst, partying, trying to “figure it all out”, then college, stopped partying and still trying to “figure it all out”. Then college again, married and “PFOOMP”, everything in my life turned upside down.
I died and came back to life.
During labor with my daughter 14 years ago I suffered an Amniotic Fluid Embolism and was without a detectable heartbeat for 8 minutes. I had a near death experience during those 8 minutes that completely changed Me. But, my life before my NDE was still the same (plus an amazing new baby girl).
I wasn’t the same.
I had come to understand who the real Me was, yet felt I couldn’t express her in the world. I felt unsupported by my family who didn’t know how to deal with it when I told them I’d experienced the afterlife. I felt incredibly alone, sans my daughter. She was (and is) the absolute light of my life.
Fast forward, rather than living my truth to the fullest from the perspective of the Love I learned I was, for many years afterward I instead dimmed myself down and lived small. I felt unable to focus on my need for personal growth in order to catch up with the loving being I knew I was at my core. I didn’t have the mental capacity for it, and was completely overwhelmed with life.
Then, I got angry.
My breaking point was when my husband became very ill and I had to work alone to keep our family going. I’d felt alone for years, but somehow the illness sparked something in me. I wasn’t going to do it anymore. I wasn’t going to put myself last. I took care of my family, but started really taking care of myself.
I began doing the things we all intuitively know we need to do to be healthy, like eating right and exercising, but took it further than that. I started mediating and being hyper-vigilant about monitoring my thoughts. I’d read about many things during that period of time, from the classics of literature to Eckart Tolle and found myself in all of it! There was so much more of Me to Me than what I was sharing with the world, and I wanted to share…I wanted to connect with others in the worst way! Over the years I’d shut myself off and knew what I needed to do in order to truly be free from the self-imposed prison I’d placed myself in. I needed to process and integrate my near death experience into my being, then reflect it outward to the world.
Three years later, I’m here writing this blog. There has been so much growth not only in Me but in my family as well. Miraculous growth! For the first time ever we were functioning as a true family unit, not separate entities living under the same roof. At the core of the many stages of growth along the way was Love for one another, and the practice of the Law of Attraction and the Twelve Principles I used to help heal me when I had nothing else.
I am in the process of starting a sister blog about the Twelve Principles and am so excited to share them with you. Within the practicing of these Principles is the potential, the true potential for miraculous healing to take place in our lives. I’m not kidding. My family is a shining example, I am a shining example.
Our lives are so precious, our reason for being here is so simple but we make it incredibly complicated.
There is a way to simplify it, but we have to strip away the old beliefs and habits of the past in order to let new ones take root and practicing the Principles are what did it for Me. They helped Me rediscover who and what I was, the Love I experienced in the afterlife is the same Love that is in me and the same Love that is in you. It’s what binds us together, and is everlasting.
Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for being here and sharing in this journey with Me.
oxoxo
This was started on Facebook and I wanted to share it with my blog community…..post comments on 5 of your friend’s walls today…encouraging words, compliments, etc..spread love in your community and the world!
xox
There are days where I feel all up in the air and discombobulated to the point of complete annoyance. I can meditate, remind, and reawaken myself to all the things I could do to create a stronger sense of peace and contentment with my “now”.
Today, I made french toast.
It was delicious.
xox
“If you really want to help this world, what you need to teach is how to live in it.” Joseph Campbell (via Bill Moyers)
I was not overtly instructed on how to live in this world by my parents. I did learn though, and now I endeavor to teach others. In my forthcoming book, Lessons In Love: Twelve Principles For Daily Living, I take the knowledge I gained during my near death experience 14 years ago, and boil it down into understandable, immediately applicable terms that help to guide others on their personal journeys through this life.
Love to you all!!
The greatest gift a mother gives her family is a commitment to her own self-care.
~Cheryl Richardson
Whenever something comes up between me and my husband that needs a little attention, I stop and try and take inventory before diving into a long discussion about whatever issue we’re having at the time. If I don’t do that, I’m apt to say things in a way I don’t mean to, or say things in general that I don’t mean to say. Mentally reviewing words before they are chosen and spoken, and checking in to see where I’m at energetically (love that word) really helps to minimize conflict in our discussions. The bottom line is, we can only control how we conduct ourselves in our relationships, and a little attention to detail goes a looong way when trying to communicate how we feel. The other person picks up on our vibe, and if it’s considerate and loving, positive and pure, that is what our relationship will be all about.
Love to you this beautiful day!
Today, I was asked to assign the name of someone I knew to various colors. It was an exercise meant to stimulate conversation. The first color was Yellow. Immediately, I thought of my daughter. I thought of her, not just because her hair is a beautiful shade of blonde, but because she really is a ray of sunshine 🙂
When she came into the world, it was chaos. She was born with barely a heartbeat, and I had none at all.
After having tubes and needles stuck into her and being placed in a plastic bassinet where oxygen could be blown in to keep her saturation up, she was taken away from everyone who loved her to another hospital where her medical emergency could be better treated. It would be six days before I was well enough to hold her sweet little body in my arms, and the moment I did, I felt I’d known her forever.
As she grew, her happy disposition inspired me on a daily basis to be more like her. I was constantly reminded of how easy it can be to approach life in a way that involves as much laughter as possible, and to seek out opportunities to do just that. Then, in middle school, everything changed. Family problems overshadowed her bright light, dimming it for a while. During that time, it was my turn to shine for her, and when the dark clouds finally disappeared, we shone together 🙂
My daughter is my inspiration, my angel, my yellow.
This day never used to hold much meaning for me. In the past, I sort of minimized it. Now, I understand it for what it is. The day of our birth is a sacred day. It is the first breath of our divine spirit into this physical form. That first breath is our introduction into this reality that we call life. At the moment of birth, of our coming forth into the world, we immediately begin to experience the field of opposites. This is in direct accordance with our free will. It was my understanding during my NDE that we have free will at all times. We always have the ability to choose our experiences, whether in physical or in spiritual form.
On this day, the day of my birth, I celebrate me. Happy Birthday to me! oxox
Being that it’s New Year’s Eve, I, like so many, find myself looking back at this time last year and being really amazed at the huge transformations that have happened not only in my life, but in the lives of my family.
For me, it’s been a journey of opening up and being vulnerable. I am allowing myself to “become” and show others my authentic self. My NDE reminded me of who that is, and of the spiritual commitment I made during my journey into the afterlife, which was to share the love I am with the world. This happens in myriad ways, and at present my ADD mind is trying to organize my efforts in many directions (M-A-N-Y). Lol.
What happens in the coming year depends on me. I create my life from my intentions, and so far, they’ve always delivered. Maybe not in the exact way I wanted them to, but always for the higher good of everyone involved. When something doesn’t “go my way” it’s for a pretty darn good reason, and just means there is something better coming down the pike than I could have imagined . When these good things happen, it’s not just me that benefits, and that’s what life is all about.
Happy New Year!
Love to you all :]
Krista Gorman, PA-C
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