We still have much to learn about the origin of life, but one short video I watched this week certainly confirmed what
so many of us already understand about energy and what/who we are.
The video was narrated by a fertility specialist who shared it on a social media platform. It was of an embryo’s cells dividing and showed a flash of light when it happened. A flash of light. This happens constantly in the body, cells are dividing all the time.
We are luminous beings. We Are Light.
My daughter was born at 9:27 am EST on July 17, 2000.
I died at 9:18 am EST on July 17, 2000.
At 9:26 am EST on July 17, 2000, I was reborn.
Today marks the 22nd anniversary of my death and rebirth, and my daughter’s 22nd birthday.
If it were not for my daughter, I wouldn’t get to be her mother. If it were not for my daughter, I wouldn’t be who I am today.
Having the gift of death and coming back to this life has been both the greatest blessing and the most challenging thing in the world. I have had to navigate a world that seemed foreign to me at first, I was so different than before but the world hadn’t changed. What I took for granted as “normal” no longer made sense and I longed for something new. I initially thought that by changing my outward life it would bring me closer to what I longed for in my heart. What I longed for was to live in a state of being where Love was the predominant energy. I wanted to be in that same state of being I was in during my NDE.
The sticking point for many years was how to “get” there. How do I “be” that Love?
I needed a road map, a blueprint for living and I finally realized I was the only one who could design it. No church, no “guru”, no thing outside of me could do it for me, could show me the way. So, I started meditating. It was the next right thing for me to do. From there, my answers as to the “how” began to arrive. The inspiration to write, to read, to slowly navigate a path back to myself became clearer and clearer.
Writing I Died And Learned How To Live was so cathartic for me. It gave me me back. It gave me a way to break through the barrier of fear I’d inadvertently built up around me to protect me from the judgement and criticism of others. It helped me strengthen in more Love and diminish the influence Ego had over me.
My days are not always carefree, but when I do struggle I have a way to bring myself back to what I know from experience to be the most healing, nurturing, peaceful state of being, which is Love. I return there over and over again.
Happy Rebirthday to me!
Love to you all!
Krista xox
Whenever life shifts, when it changes and creates what may appear to be discord in our lives, feeling the discord then letting it go helps ease our suffering and allows the resistance to soften so we may continue on our path…when we can pick up the pieces of whatever’s broken we have an opportunity to create something more beautiful and life vivifying than what came before.
Here’s to picking up the pieces and creating a work of art!
xoxo love to you all 🙂
Life is in constant motion with the ebb and flow of universal energy…to block that flow is to create discord in our lives.
When electricity is traveling down a wire and hits a resistor, it stops. There is no more flow. When we resist the flow of source through us, we also stop…we stop growing, our consciousness stops evolving and ascending the way it desires to which leads to suffering. The suffering can either cause us to further stagnate or it can catapult us into a space of new awareness which then leads to expansion. Suffering always has within the experience the potential for energetic expansion as long as we do not resist it.
Resistance of suffering is often a knee-jerk reaction to the feeling of pain. But, if we can allow the experience to simply be and feel the feelings we have as they move through us then let them continue on their energetic path, we allow for the presence of new energy that has the potential to renew, heal and energize…energy we could not have if we are blocking the release of the old.
Today, I choose to go with the flow…xoxo
Why is it that we struggle so much with loving ourselves?
What is it that holds us back from fully embracing who we are and celebrating that person in our daily lives?
For me, it was that I wasn’t aware of who I was in the first place! I grew up without the guidance from my family that I needed to get in touch with myself. It wasn’t their fault, they were unaware also. It took the trials of life, a near death experience and the trials in my life that followed for me to become fully aware of who I am in this physical body.
To say “We’re all connected” is somewhat abstract with lots of room for interpretation. For me, it means we are literally connected via the energy we are made up of and all that exists outside of us and extending throughout the universe. Energy is always in motion. We are always in motion, ever evolving over time and space.
To love ourselves is to love all there is. When I struggle with loving and caring well for myself, I remind myself how I love and care for what’s outside of me and that I am an integral part of it. It’s really a simple solution for a complex problem we all face.
Love to You!! xox
Like all things in nature, we are energy. Right now we’re in this form, this package of flesh and blood that when broken down into its smallest components is just vibration and we can alter our vibration through what we feel and think.
Feeling is our main mode of communication and the energy of it emanates from our physical body and moves seamlessly with our Source energy through this time and space.
When we feel something, like when we sense thirst, it’s then followed by the thought “I’m thirsty, I need something to drink.” The thought is the second step in the summoning of the energetic resources of the Universe. The next is the physical manifestation of thought energy.
The organs in our physical body vibrate like everything else, and tell us when we’re in alignment with who we really are. When we think negatively we create “bad feelings” which do not resonate with who we are in our truest form, which is love. As long as we’re spending our thought energy on negativity we transfer that out-of-alignment energy to our physical body which results in illness. All illness is a state of misalignment, a sign we’re in need of healing and that we need to pay attention to our well-being. That attention can take the form of thinking healthy thoughts, eating healthy foods and getting enough rest, which are the physical acts we can take to correct the imbalance. It can also take the form of “cognitive therapy” which is the ongoing process of monitoring our thoughts so as to bring forth and focus on only those thoughts that bring us into alignment with who we really are.
Who we are is love and love holds perfect form. It is the totality of all there is and is our true nature of being. Our thought energy is an integral part of maintaining that love-state of being, but more so it is how we feel that creates or uncreates it.
We can think “I am healthy.” But the quest for good health doesn’t stop there. It must be taken a step further with the thought energy integrated into the physical body through the feeling of “I am healthy”. How does this happen? By practicing self-care. The act of lovingly preparing a nourishing meal or exercising with the intention of feeling good manifests in the body as loving, healing energy. Our cells then use that energy to perform the functions it must in order to maintain our physical form. The illusion is there is separation between all of these things, that they function independent of one another when in fact, they are seamlessly working together-the energy of feeling, thought, physical act, and physical manifestation in the body is a continuum with the loving energy of the universe and we have the free-will to use it in whichever way we desire.
That energy is always loving, it is we who alter its form into what the ego wishes it to be based on whatever needs it has in the moment and there is nothing wrong with doing that because it provides contrast to our true nature, which allows for us to grow spiritually while here on this earth, in this form.
When we let go of the physical and move into the realm of pure consciousness we have the choice of where to go and have the unending, loving support of the universe’s co-creative power, only in the realm of the afterlife, its power is much greater, but then, so is ours.
Wishing you abundant health!
xxoo
When I talk about my journey after having my daughter and a near death experience at the same time, I often have “a -ha!” moments where new revelations help my understanding of my life and death grow.
For many years after my NDE, in order to appease everyone around me, I made a conscious effort to continue being the “old” Krista, the one who thought the same as she did and acted the way she would, but now had the experience of the love I really was, so being the “old” Krista no longer felt quite right. Still, in order to maintain what felt safe in my life, I justified the feeling and found a way to continue living that way.
Even though my memory and retention wasn’t that great, (8 minutes without blood flow to my brain) because I focused my attention on things like grudges and past hurts, I was able to hold on to them which of course made them easier to remember. One of the things I’d done in my life before was to be easily slighted and resentful. Being that way never felt good, but I wasn’t able to connect the “not feeling good” to my own thoughts and behaviors. It was always someone else’s fault, not mine. Ego can be incredibly strong when we’re not aware!
Once I began my process of reawakening to the love I am, I realized the hurt and resentment wasn’t in alignment with who I was. I worked less at holding onto and was gradually able to heal and let go of the negative emotions I’d carried with me from the past. I began to feel lighter and more in alignment with my true self.
During that process I had a significant a-ha moment while reading through someone’s Facebook post where they used the phrase “Forgive but don’t forget.” I disagreed. My memory loss and poor recall along with remembering who I really am has allowed me to easily forget the things others do or say that my ego may initially perceive as hurtful. Not only that, but I’ve allowed my ego to take a backseat to the love I am and rarely feel slighted or injured by the action or lack of action of those around me. It’s not that I consciously let it go each and every time but I simply forget about it, not just in my mind but in my body as well. I also choose over and over to live from the perspective of love and compassion so the times where negative feelings enter into my consciousness are not nearly as frequent as they were in the past.
Thoughts manifest in our physical form and what I discovered when I began to make my transformation here, returning to the love I am, was that I started to physically feel better. I was not holding on to negativity. For a long time I worked at not letting it go because it kept me tethered to my ego and my ego kept me stagnant so I didn’t have to open up and be the person I knew my self to be. Through letting go of the fear of being “me” I was able to heal past hurts and let them go so I could better live my truth. It’s the same path we all walk toward living in this world as the love we are and I wish that same feeling of freedom for everyone!
Much Love! xox
I recently went on a retreat that truly amazed me.
Initially, I was reluctant to go…and wasn’t sure why. I found this out after two days of prayer and singing…not well, but I sang. I participated in the program they had created for all of us, letting go and allowing the beautiful, loving energy carry me wherever it wanted me to go.
These were very loving, spiritual, religious women who were there to share their love and spirituality with others with the hope of facilitating healing for those who needed it. They did an amazing job.
I went at the urging of a friend who helped organize the retreat. She knew of my NDE and felt my story could bring great healing to the other attendees. That’s why I went, to be of service using the knowledge I’d gained in the afterlife and after death. I did give generously, but received so much more.
These women were powerful. Just through their love and belief in the loving God of their faith they visibly helped dozens of women, including me. I experienced literal miracles that weekend, and couldn’t have been more grateful for having the opportunity to take part in it. I wanted to retreat, and boy did I!
After all the years of living for others, I’ve incorporated Me into the mix.
It wasn’t easy.
I struggled for a really long time trying to figure out why I was so unhappy, unfulfilled and, quite frankly, lost. In fact, I was so preoccupied with figuring it out that I missed out on so much potential for joy in my life.
I want better things for you. I want others to learn from Me. We are all in this together.
Here’s a little bit of my story….teenage angst, partying, trying to “figure it all out”, then college, stopped partying and still trying to “figure it all out”. Then college again, married and “PFOOMP”, everything in my life turned upside down.
I died and came back to life.
During labor with my daughter 14 years ago I suffered an Amniotic Fluid Embolism and was without a detectable heartbeat for 8 minutes. I had a near death experience during those 8 minutes that completely changed Me. But, my life before my NDE was still the same (plus an amazing new baby girl).
I wasn’t the same.
I had come to understand who the real Me was, yet felt I couldn’t express her in the world. I felt unsupported by my family who didn’t know how to deal with it when I told them I’d experienced the afterlife. I felt incredibly alone, sans my daughter. She was (and is) the absolute light of my life.
Fast forward, rather than living my truth to the fullest from the perspective of the Love I learned I was, for many years afterward I instead dimmed myself down and lived small. I felt unable to focus on my need for personal growth in order to catch up with the loving being I knew I was at my core. I didn’t have the mental capacity for it, and was completely overwhelmed with life.
Then, I got angry.
My breaking point was when my husband became very ill and I had to work alone to keep our family going. I’d felt alone for years, but somehow the illness sparked something in me. I wasn’t going to do it anymore. I wasn’t going to put myself last. I took care of my family, but started really taking care of myself.
I began doing the things we all intuitively know we need to do to be healthy, like eating right and exercising, but took it further than that. I started mediating and being hyper-vigilant about monitoring my thoughts. I’d read about many things during that period of time, from the classics of literature to Eckart Tolle and found myself in all of it! There was so much more of Me to Me than what I was sharing with the world, and I wanted to share…I wanted to connect with others in the worst way! Over the years I’d shut myself off and knew what I needed to do in order to truly be free from the self-imposed prison I’d placed myself in. I needed to process and integrate my near death experience into my being, then reflect it outward to the world.
Three years later, I’m here writing this blog. There has been so much growth not only in Me but in my family as well. Miraculous growth! For the first time ever we were functioning as a true family unit, not separate entities living under the same roof. At the core of the many stages of growth along the way was Love for one another, and the practice of the Law of Attraction and the Twelve Principles I used to help heal me when I had nothing else.
I am in the process of starting a sister blog about the Twelve Principles and am so excited to share them with you. Within the practicing of these Principles is the potential, the true potential for miraculous healing to take place in our lives. I’m not kidding. My family is a shining example, I am a shining example.
Our lives are so precious, our reason for being here is so simple but we make it incredibly complicated.
There is a way to simplify it, but we have to strip away the old beliefs and habits of the past in order to let new ones take root and practicing the Principles are what did it for Me. They helped Me rediscover who and what I was, the Love I experienced in the afterlife is the same Love that is in me and the same Love that is in you. It’s what binds us together, and is everlasting.
Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for being here and sharing in this journey with Me.
oxoxo
Krista Gorman, PA-C
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