“The doctor I would want for myself or for anyone else I cared about would be one who understands that disease is more than just a clinical entity; it is an experience and a metaphor, with a message that must be listened to“
Several years ago when my husband was very ill, I was in the midst of my own sort of illness. It had started many years before after my near death experience I had during labor with my daughter. I’d spent the years since then wrapped up in this internal struggle where I was afraid of being the love I learned I was in the afterlife, yet knew I had to be that person in order to live the Iife I came here to live. I was miserable.
For 8 months we didn’t know what was wrong with my husband, and I spent that time caring for him and our daughter while also working on my self. I knew that I needed to figure out a way to be happy, to live in better alignment with who I was and therefore be able to be there more fully and completely for my family.
During that process, that 8 months of uncertainty, I’d never felt more alive in my life. The inner work I was doing helped me be present and fearless and accepting and confident in knowing that no matter what, everything was going to be just fine. I was the rock my family stood upon when they had nothing to hold them up. I created that rock, and I wasn’t alone in that creation.
I took what I learned in the afterlife and applied it to my life here. I began living my life differently, every moment of every day I focused on positive change and began to experience those changes not only within myself, but in my husband and daughter as well.
The Twelve Principles For Daily Living were the things I practiced. They were the conduits for healing in my life and the lives of my husband and daughter. I present them in my book, I Died And Learned How To LIve, and am working on a book that is just about the Twelve Principles.
There are no words that can adequately express the gratitude I have for the experience of going through 8 months of, what could have been, emotional torture. I was given that opportunity so I could get real and get serious about figuring out how to live my life better, how to practice being the person I knew I was but didn’t know how to be.
Today, I practice an attitude of gratitude. There is so much to be grateful for.