Matters Of Life And Death

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Matters Of Life And Death
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    • Awareness and Letting Go

      Posted at 12:08 PM by Krista Gorman, PA-C, on March 20, 2015

      When I talk about my journey after having my daughter and a near death experience at the same time, I often have “a -ha!” moments where new revelations help my understanding of my life and death grow.

      For many years after my NDE, in order to appease everyone around me, I made a conscious effort to continue being the “old” Krista, the one who thought the same as she did and acted the way she would, but now had the experience of the love I really was, so being the “old” Krista no longer felt quite right.  Still, in order to maintain what felt safe in my life, I justified the feeling and found a way to continue living that way.

      Even though my memory and retention wasn’t that great,  (8 minutes without blood flow to my brain) because I focused my attention on things like grudges and past hurts, I was able to hold on to them which of course made them easier to remember.  One of the things I’d done in my life before was to be easily slighted and resentful.  Being that way never felt good, but I wasn’t able to connect the “not feeling good” to my own thoughts and behaviors.  It was always someone else’s fault, not mine.  Ego can be incredibly strong when we’re not aware!

      Once I began my process of reawakening to the love I am, I realized the hurt and resentment wasn’t in alignment with who I was.  I worked less at holding onto and was gradually able to heal and let go of the negative emotions I’d carried with me from the past.  I began to feel lighter and more in alignment with my true self.

      During that process I had a significant a-ha moment while reading through someone’s Facebook post where they used the phrase “Forgive but don’t forget.”  I disagreed.  My memory loss and poor recall along with remembering who I really am has allowed me to easily forget the things others do or say that my ego may initially perceive as hurtful.  Not only that, but I’ve allowed my ego to take a backseat to the love I am and rarely feel slighted or injured by the action or lack of action of those around me.  It’s not that I consciously let it go each and every time but I simply forget about it, not just in my mind but in my body as well.   I also choose over and over to live from the perspective of love and compassion so the times where negative feelings enter into my consciousness are not nearly as frequent as they were in the past.

      Thoughts manifest in our physical form and what I discovered when I began to make my transformation here, returning to the love I am, was that I started to physically feel better.  I was not holding on to negativity.  For a long time I worked at not letting it go because it kept me tethered to my ego and my ego kept me stagnant so I didn’t have to open up and be the person I knew my self to be.  Through letting go of the fear of being “me” I was able to heal past hurts and let them go so I could better live my truth.  It’s the same path we all walk toward living in this world as the love we are and I wish that same feeling of freedom for everyone!

      Much Love!  xox

      Posted in Uncategorized | 0 Comments | Tagged acceptance, awareness, beauty, choices, compassion, ego, good health, healing ourselves, law of attraction, living our truth
    • Loving Ourselves

      Posted at 12:12 PM by Krista Gorman, PA-C, on December 10, 2014

      I have some experience with the challenges around this topic.  My inclination had always been to put others’ needs first before mine, to minimize my needs so as to accommodate others.  While that is absolutely necessary in life, a balance needs to be created between dispensing our energy and energizing ourselves.

      We need to get in order to give.

      How do we replenish ourselves of the energy we give away?  Through loving ourselves.  That’s it.  The love we give away must be equal to the love we show ourselves.  Otherwise, we end up depleted and defeated.  The challenge here is that often we hold the belief we don’t deserve it.  For some reason, we don’t feel as worthy of receiving as those who receive.

      As we live our lives, we often lose touch with the loving, divine beings we are.  We are made up of pure love.  The energy that fuels us is love energy.  That love energy is what makes up the universe.  That universal energy is flowing through us and is everywhere, all the time. It’s an unbroken cycle.  If we lack the love for ourselves that we endeavor to give away, we disconnect from that universal love. We temporarily break and disconnect from our source.  Without source energy flowing through us, we deplete our own.  We cannot give what we don’t have.  So if we truly want to share with and serve others with our love, we must connect and replenish with the love of the universe.

      Make sense?  Let me know your thoughts!

      Love To You!!

      Posted in Uncategorized | 2 Comments | Tagged charity, Children, choices, Christmas, compassion, connection, faith, hope, how to love ourselves, law of attraction, love energy, self love
    • The Power Of Yes

      Posted at 8:36 AM by Krista Gorman, PA-C, on December 3, 2014

      Growing up I heard “No” so many times I thought that was the usual way to respond to things.  Negativity in my family was not intentional, simply perpetual.  My parents had simply carried over their own childhood beliefs and ways of viewing the world without scrutiny and without awareness.

      As I grew into adulthood and began to notice the difference between my usual fall-back response and that of others, as I became more aware it wasn’t exactly the norm, I also became (here it is…) aware I had a choice.  I could either say “No” to life or “Yes” to life.

      I started with myself.  I’d always been someone who enjoyed helping others, often sacrificing my own needs in the process.  When I started putting my needs first with the intention of also serving others, things began to flow easier.  I began to say “Yes” more frequently to myself and big changes came with that.

      I graduated college after much initial struggle.  I moved across the country to experience life in a different way.  I decided to go into medicine, and have been practicing it for the last 14 years.  All because I said “Yes” to myself and to life.

      Now, I am saying “Yes” to you.  I returned after a near death experience to kick my service to others up a notch.  I came back to be an inspiration and support for those who struggle in life.  I am a student and a teacher, as we all are.  The only difference between any two people are levels of awareness and experience.  We can help elevate one another, all we need to do is say “YES!”

      Love to All!!

      xox

      Posted in Uncategorized | 2 Comments | Tagged awareness, believe, choices, creating your life, how to live life, loving yourself, negativity, positive thinking
    • Furgeson’s Legacy

      Posted at 8:00 AM by Krista Gorman, PA-C, on November 30, 2014

      Through suffering comes change.  Through darkness, light.  Through compassion and love, a more compassionate and loving world.

      Posted in Uncategorized | 0 Comments | Tagged Children, choices, compassion, Furgeson, grace, intention, love, police
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