Whenever life shifts, when it changes and creates what may appear to be discord in our lives, feeling the discord then letting it go helps ease our suffering and allows the resistance to soften so we may continue on our path…when we can pick up the pieces of whatever’s broken we have an opportunity to create something more beautiful and life vivifying than what came before.
Here’s to picking up the pieces and creating a work of art!
xoxo love to you all 🙂
Our lives are not our own and they were never meant to be. We’re here to participate in this world and share in all of it, to support and love one another. There’s no good or bad, those are judgements against what is beyond judgement. Death is a continuum of life and we’re her to live…to really live. Love you all! xox
Why is it that we struggle so much with loving ourselves?
What is it that holds us back from fully embracing who we are and celebrating that person in our daily lives?
For me, it was that I wasn’t aware of who I was in the first place! I grew up without the guidance from my family that I needed to get in touch with myself. It wasn’t their fault, they were unaware also. It took the trials of life, a near death experience and the trials in my life that followed for me to become fully aware of who I am in this physical body.
To say “We’re all connected” is somewhat abstract with lots of room for interpretation. For me, it means we are literally connected via the energy we are made up of and all that exists outside of us and extending throughout the universe. Energy is always in motion. We are always in motion, ever evolving over time and space.
To love ourselves is to love all there is. When I struggle with loving and caring well for myself, I remind myself how I love and care for what’s outside of me and that I am an integral part of it. It’s really a simple solution for a complex problem we all face.
Love to You!! xox
When I talk about my journey after having my daughter and a near death experience at the same time, I often have “a -ha!” moments where new revelations help my understanding of my life and death grow.
For many years after my NDE, in order to appease everyone around me, I made a conscious effort to continue being the “old” Krista, the one who thought the same as she did and acted the way she would, but now had the experience of the love I really was, so being the “old” Krista no longer felt quite right. Still, in order to maintain what felt safe in my life, I justified the feeling and found a way to continue living that way.
Even though my memory and retention wasn’t that great, (8 minutes without blood flow to my brain) because I focused my attention on things like grudges and past hurts, I was able to hold on to them which of course made them easier to remember. One of the things I’d done in my life before was to be easily slighted and resentful. Being that way never felt good, but I wasn’t able to connect the “not feeling good” to my own thoughts and behaviors. It was always someone else’s fault, not mine. Ego can be incredibly strong when we’re not aware!
Once I began my process of reawakening to the love I am, I realized the hurt and resentment wasn’t in alignment with who I was. I worked less at holding onto and was gradually able to heal and let go of the negative emotions I’d carried with me from the past. I began to feel lighter and more in alignment with my true self.
During that process I had a significant a-ha moment while reading through someone’s Facebook post where they used the phrase “Forgive but don’t forget.” I disagreed. My memory loss and poor recall along with remembering who I really am has allowed me to easily forget the things others do or say that my ego may initially perceive as hurtful. Not only that, but I’ve allowed my ego to take a backseat to the love I am and rarely feel slighted or injured by the action or lack of action of those around me. It’s not that I consciously let it go each and every time but I simply forget about it, not just in my mind but in my body as well. I also choose over and over to live from the perspective of love and compassion so the times where negative feelings enter into my consciousness are not nearly as frequent as they were in the past.
Thoughts manifest in our physical form and what I discovered when I began to make my transformation here, returning to the love I am, was that I started to physically feel better. I was not holding on to negativity. For a long time I worked at not letting it go because it kept me tethered to my ego and my ego kept me stagnant so I didn’t have to open up and be the person I knew my self to be. Through letting go of the fear of being “me” I was able to heal past hurts and let them go so I could better live my truth. It’s the same path we all walk toward living in this world as the love we are and I wish that same feeling of freedom for everyone!
Much Love! xox
I recently went on a retreat that truly amazed me.
Initially, I was reluctant to go…and wasn’t sure why. I found this out after two days of prayer and singing…not well, but I sang. I participated in the program they had created for all of us, letting go and allowing the beautiful, loving energy carry me wherever it wanted me to go.
These were very loving, spiritual, religious women who were there to share their love and spirituality with others with the hope of facilitating healing for those who needed it. They did an amazing job.
I went at the urging of a friend who helped organize the retreat. She knew of my NDE and felt my story could bring great healing to the other attendees. That’s why I went, to be of service using the knowledge I’d gained in the afterlife and after death. I did give generously, but received so much more.
These women were powerful. Just through their love and belief in the loving God of their faith they visibly helped dozens of women, including me. I experienced literal miracles that weekend, and couldn’t have been more grateful for having the opportunity to take part in it. I wanted to retreat, and boy did I!
I’ve been focusing my thoughts around this topic a lot lately, but not really intentionally lol. It’s just sort of there and I’m paying attention to it. I suppose it’s partly because of my desire to move forward in my life and the fact that I feel like the things I want are taking too long to manifest….Patience….
The overarching reason for my being is to be of service to myself and others. Within that are little desires, like loving and healthy relationships, good health, financial security, being surrounded by the beauty of nature, etc. All of these, I believe, will help bring a greater richness to life on top of what I will receive through the work I do directly with people. The energetic exchange between us can be so moving and so fulfilling and so very life-vivifying. I’d like to have as many of those exchanges as possible while helping to relieve suffering through sharing my story and what I’ve learned.
Today, I intend to focus my energy on love, healing and joy and have faith all that I desire is manifesting as I’m doing it.
The Twelve Principles in practice….they are what I’m using through Intention to create my life today.
Much Love xox
Several years ago when my husband was very ill, I was in the midst of my own sort of illness. It had started many years before after my near death experience I had during labor with my daughter. I’d spent the years since then wrapped up in this internal struggle where I was afraid of being the love I learned I was in the afterlife, yet knew I had to be that person in order to live the Iife I came here to live. I was miserable.
For 8 months we didn’t know what was wrong with my husband, and I spent that time caring for him and our daughter while also working on my self. I knew that I needed to figure out a way to be happy, to live in better alignment with who I was and therefore be able to be there more fully and completely for my family.
During that process, that 8 months of uncertainty, I’d never felt more alive in my life. The inner work I was doing helped me be present and fearless and accepting and confident in knowing that no matter what, everything was going to be just fine. I was the rock my family stood upon when they had nothing to hold them up. I created that rock, and I wasn’t alone in that creation.
I took what I learned in the afterlife and applied it to my life here. I began living my life differently, every moment of every day I focused on positive change and began to experience those changes not only within myself, but in my husband and daughter as well.
The Twelve Principles For Daily Living were the things I practiced. They were the conduits for healing in my life and the lives of my husband and daughter. I present them in my book, I Died And Learned How To LIve, and am working on a book that is just about the Twelve Principles.
There are no words that can adequately express the gratitude I have for the experience of going through 8 months of, what could have been, emotional torture. I was given that opportunity so I could get real and get serious about figuring out how to live my life better, how to practice being the person I knew I was but didn’t know how to be.
Today, I practice an attitude of gratitude. There is so much to be grateful for.
Have you ever made a plan, let’s say for the weekend, one that was rock solid and tight and you just couldn’t wait to execute it because it was awesome and you were going to have an amazing time?
Then, it rains or you can’t find your one credit card that you need, or your child gets sick. Better yet, YOU get sick.
The disappointment sets in and throws you for a loop. Everything sucks. The weekend is ruined. You won’t have another weekend off for months and who knows if you can make the same plans again, or if you’d even be able to do it because SOMETHING would probably happen to screw it up…..
The thing is, none of that matters. There are no guarantees in this life. There isn’t a rule book that says we get everything we want in the way we want it.
I didn’t plan to suffer cardiopulmonary arrest and die while in labor with my daughter. For me, the outcome was predictable. I’d deliver my baby and with my husband at my side we’d see her for the first time together.
None of that happened.
And it’s ok.
Life is full of surprises and cool little twists and turns. Some are more pronounced than others, more significant, but they all boil down to the same thing. Unpredictability.
It seems counterintuitive, but if we can settle ourselves into the understanding of there are no guarantees in this life and we only have control over how we think and therefore respond to situations, we’d be a lot happier.
I didn’t get the last donut this morning. My daughter ate it before I got up. It’s ok, because I had a piece of cake instead.
See what I mean?
xoxo
My job is in medicine and I meet a lot of people every day. I love everyone. Everyone is deserving of my love, especially those who seem to suffer more than others, like the homeless alcoholic who I later learned had been a Obstetrition at one time, or the distraught young woman who cut her wrist after her boyfriend broke up with her. My words to her were simple, “You don’t have to live this way, and you know it.” I could feel her energy shift at that moment. I cared for a middle-aged obese woman with high blood pressure who obviously wasn’t taking care of herself. As I left the room, my words to her were “Do what you know you need to do for yourself. You’re worth it.” She and her husband’s jaws dropped at that, literally. I laughed a little, knowing she’d remember it and maybe get back in touch with the love she is.
I’m not bragging or blowing my own horn, I just believe we need to focus on and talk more about love. When we do, it carries that love energy outward, all around us. In the presence of love, there can’t be hate. No fear. Just Love.
Lots of Love to You!
Easier said than done?
It can be. Unless we say “It’s easy!”
Henry Ford said, “Whether you think you can or think you can’t, you’re right.”
Be your self (the space between the words was intentional). Your self is all there is.
Love to You!
Krista Gorman, PA-C
Matters Of Life And Death 