The series of events leading to my decision to go to NYC during the COVID-19 pandemic were divinely synchronous. They actually began happening a long time ago.
Since having an NDE in 2000, my life has been a series of synchronous events leading up to this moment. This moment, where I’m sitting in my seat on a flight to JFK that is only 1/16th full. This moment where, though every precaution will be taken, there is fear for my safety amongst family and friends. It is in this moment where fear is not a consideration for me, rather, my desire to provide relief to exhausted healthcare workers and take care of sick patients overrides everything.
It occurred to me to not go, to just stay at home with my loved ones, however, going benefits me in multiple ways. The greatest is, I get to share my love, which is seamless with the infinite love of the universe, during a point in time where it can help to heal. Though my patients won’t be able to see my smile, they will see my smiling eyes reflecting them as I hold them in the highest vibration of loving, healing energy. They will feel my love, as heart recognizes heart. How can I be afraid of that?
Because I am not afraid, I’m able to be grateful. I’m able to be present. I’m able to truly be there for those who are suffering. Fear cements us to whatever is going on around us. When we’re able to let go of the need for controlling outcomes and allowing life to be, it is a life of freedom. As the reins we normally hold tight begin to loosen, we are able to move through each day with greater ease. We experience ourselves in a new way. We experience others in a new way. Relationships change because we change. Life simply gets better. Then, as we let go a little more, we expand a little more, and grow in more and more love.
For me, the process of getting to the point I’m at now with regard to fear has been a long one. I’ve spent the better part of my life teetering between fear and allowing for life to flow. But, like the spiral, each time I come around from a bout of fear, I’ve expanded a little bit beyond where I was before. We can all say this about ourselves. Take a look back on your own life and notice where your growth points occurred and what was happening in your life at that time. Notice it from the perspective of fear vs allowing and see how these things relate. At this time in your life, look at the potential for growth as you’re sitting in fear, and reach for the feeling of love, no matter how far the stretch.
Much Love to you all! xo
Krista Gorman, PA-C
Matters Of Life And Death 
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Leesa Anderson
Looking forward to reading about your experiences in NYC. Loving your courage and generosity.
Best, Leesa Anderson
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Krista Gorman, PA-C
Thank you, Leesa 🙂 I’m looking forward to sharing it. xoxo
Krista Gorman, PA-C
Thank you Leesa 🙂 xo
Matthew Kurshals
WOW Krista.! I first heard of you from you appearance on Morgan Freeman’s show The Story of God. I was watching because I am s spiritual seeker. I was brought up to believe in religion. I became pretty much atheist after a while. I was always skeptical about what I was being taught. When it occurred to me that what I was taught as a child was wrong I dismissed all religions and spiritual beliefs as wrong. I’ve had bouts with precognition and other spiritual phenomena. Therefore I Always kept an open mind. So, about a year or so ago I started to have some existential angst. I Love life and the universe so I really do want to live for ever. I began doing research on spirituality and the afterlife. I didn’t realize all the scientific data that points to the reality of the afterlife. Now that I’ve been researching I can feel that the afterlife is real about 90%of the time. I told you all this to say thank you for sharing your story with the world. It has made me feel that much surer that what all you people are saying about the afterlife is true. Thank you Krista. Gratefully ~ Matt Kurshals
Krista Gorman, PA-C
Hi Matthew. Thank you for your comment. It’s so amazing to hear about what brings others to the stories/accounts/etc of NDEs and other Spiritually Transformative Experiences (STEs). This journey we are on individually and collectively is leading us to new understandings all the time and it’s all so exciting! We always have the eternal moment, and we never truly die, so we do ‘live’ forever. This is not the be all and end all of our conscious existence, we actually transform back into even greater conscious awareness when we leave the confines of the physical body. Being here in the physical is our opportunity to expand our awareness of the Love we are, and then share it with the world. It is absolutely my pleasure to do that. Be well, Matt! xox